Friday, January 22, 2016

A641.2.3.RB - Am I a Resonant Leader?

Resonant leadership requires a unique blend of characteristics that reflect your vision, beliefs, and values, as well as your ability to practice mindfulness, hope, and compassion to help renew yourself and maintain success (Boyatzis & McKee, 2005).  Reflecting on my own practice at being a resonant leader was a bit challenging for me.  I think I have aspects of certain areas required to be successful including compassion, positivity, and mindfulness, I also feel that the areas where I am successful are a attributes of my lack of success in other areas.  As I’ve progressed through this Leadership program, I have started to become more aware of my strengths and weaknesses that play a role in my development as an effective leader and have noticed that my strengths are valuable representations of my values and beliefs.  However, my strengths also point to the areas in my development that are struggling.
After completing this exercise I was surprised to discover that I may not be as in tune to others as I might think I am. While I've worked hard to put other people and their needs first, I have unintentionally lost who I am and what my goals are through communicating. I’ve always considered myself and actively worked on showing compassion and empathy for people through listening and offering a positive, optimistic view of a better future; however, I realize that I haven’t exactly figured out how to take my personal beliefs and values and translate them in a way that represents who I am. As a result of this, I feel like I’m not as authentic when communicating and building relationships with others because I haven’t fully developed that basic, foundation of self-awareness. While I feel I have a strong and honest understanding of the basic values and goals I have for myself, this exercise highlighted that I struggle with grasping and interpreting my values to others in a way that inspires and motivates.  This disconnect is something that I think relates to my underdeveloped self-confidence.   When dealing with myself and my own questions, I feel like my self-awareness is strong and clear, but when pressured by outside sources, I find myself lacking the confidence to hold on to my beliefs for fear of having insufficient skills and knowledge to back those beliefs and values up.  An area of weakness for me when building relationships with others is my ability to effectively communicate my vision. Not being able to effectively communicate has caused me to lack self-confidence, which in turn, has effected my presence and impact as a leader (McKee, Boyatzis, & Johnson, 2008).  I find it a lot easier for me to step out of my own thoughts and into someone else’s and offer advice through their perspective as it relates to the situation than through my own.  While I think this can be a positive area for me, I do think this quality also hurts me in my development for staying authentic and in tune with myself and the environment to communicate a clear vision for the future. 
I feel like I have worked hard on building the elements of emotional intelligence, but without a strong foundation of self-awareness, I struggle to connect my skills and abilities with others.  This exercise has highlighted more specifically the areas that I need to develop first, which include understanding my self-awareness and believing in my abilities, as well as working on gaining self-confidence through actively engaging in situations that make myself and my values feel vulnerable.  From my experience, I have found that putting myself in vulnerable and unsettling situations has helped me gain valuable knowledge and understanding for myself and my strengths.  Because I am forced to defend myself, I am better able to grasp my capabilities and strengths, which has helped my development.  I do feel that I have been successful in inspiring and encouraging others to be their best, but I worry that many times I may have been encouraging others through reading them and reflecting what I think they want to hear instead of what I really believe.  I want to be able to express myself and believe in myself, so that I can effectively lead change and work toward a goal that I am passionate about. Through continually practice, I feel like I will continue to improve and gain knowledge to build a stronger foundation for being a resonant leader and a more self-aware person.   


References

Boyatzis, R. E., & McKee, A. (2005). Resonant Leadership: Renewing yourself and connecting with others through mindfulness, hope, and compassion. Boston: Harvard Business School Press.

McKee, A., Boyatzis, R. E., & Johnston, F. (2008). Becoming a resonant leader: Develop your emotional intelligence, renew your relationships, sustain your effectiveness. Boston, MA: Harvard Business School Pub. 

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